Going to see difficult child this Saturday...

Discussion in 'Substance Abuse' started by PatriotsGirl, Jan 27, 2015.

  1. PatriotsGirl

    PatriotsGirl Well-Known Member

    Her case worker called me earlier wanting to ask some questions about her previous rehab stays and I gave her everything we have tried...she told me that difficult child is doing really well and things have started turning around for her (not sure what that means but it sounds good). :)

    So we will get a phone call from her Thursday night and then we will go see her Saturday. Visitation is from 1 - 5 and then it is family counseling until 6pm so it will be a long day but I am looking forward to it.

    Her case worker also told me that she herself has a daughter a year younger than difficult child who is also a drug addict currently locked up in jail. I am very sorry for her, of course, but it is nice knowing that this case worker knows exactly what we have been and are going through...
     
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  2. dstc_99

    dstc_99 Well-Known Member

    I am glad she is doing well and that you guys get to spend some time together. Crossing my fingers that it is all good time and positive improvements are made.
     
  3. stressedmama

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    I'm glad you've got good news and it sounds like your difficult child is really making strides.

    Hope all is well with Connor...are you taking him with you on Saturday?
     
  4. PatriotsGirl

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    Oh absolutely!! I keep telling him we are going to see mama but he thinks I am mama so he just smiles and says mama...lol. It will be just Connor and I this weekend. husband is working and easy child just has no interest in seeing difficult child right now.

    I received her letter today - very positive. She admits she has her ups and downs and has a lot more healing to do but feels she is on the right road and at THE perfect place for it. She still really, really loves it there. :)

    We will also get a short phone call tomorrow night but I am looking forward to seeing her on Saturday...
     
  5. pasajes4

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  6. Nancy

    Nancy Well-Known Member Staff Member

    Glad you will be seeing her and that she seems to be moving forward.
     
  7. toughlovin

    toughlovin Well-Known Member

    Very glad things are looking up and you will get to see her. Just remember it is one day at a time both with the bad stuff and with the good stuff. I keep reminding myself of that.
     
  8. Kathy813

    Kathy813 Well-Known Member Staff Member

    Wow, that sounds very promising. Good for difficult child!

    ~Kathy
     
  9. PatriotsGirl

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    She got to call us yesterday evening for five minutes. I asked her if she wanted me to bring any food when we come there on Saturday and she says yes! So I ask her what she would like, and she says anything you would like. I asked her if she is getting low on spending money (they get to take a couple of dollars with them on their trips to Wal-Mart). She says she thinks she is, but she does not need a thing. She told me that they earn money working in the thrift store and that if she needs anything, they are allowed to borrow against that. She said she actually wants to start sending us money for Connor's care. We told her that is very sweet but we don't need anything. We would rather her save her money up. She teared up of course and kept saying she couldn't wait to see us. :)

    Should be a good visit and thank God for this miracle place!!!! <3
     
  10. stressedmama

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    Oh PG, that is wonderful news! I'm so happy for all of you that she's doing so well! Enjoy your visit and give us an update!!
     
  11. PatriotsGirl

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    Oh man. I really wish I could describe the miracles and the healing that I felt yesterday. I will need to write more tomorrow but let me just say that the visit was amazing and the family counseling was so, so good!!!! Connor didn't need any warm up time this time. He hugged her, kissed her and had a blast. When it was time for him to go to the children's dorm so we could have counseling, he gave her a hug and kiss goodbye and said "bye mama". So much to tell but I am on my phone here while little man is eating mac and cheese for breakfast (yes, he grabbed the container and brought me to the microwave to make it - so funny).
     
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  12. pasajes4

    pasajes4 Well-Known Member

    Sounds promising.
     
  13. SomewhereOutThere

    SomewhereOutThere Well-Known Member

    Your daughter will make it. She doesn't like herself when she is doing drugs. She loves her son. She isn't going to make drugs her entire life.

    Keep.The.Faith!
     
  14. Kathy813

    Kathy813 Well-Known Member Staff Member

    That is wonderful news, PG. I am so happy and hopeful for you and your daughter. by the way, when you get a chance, check your PM's. I sent you one.

    ~Kathy
     
  15. recoveringenabler

    recoveringenabler Well-Known Member Staff Member

    So happy to hear this PG, it all sounds really good.
     
  16. KTMom91

    KTMom91 Well-Known Member

    Great update! I'm so glad things are going well.
     
  17. stressedmama

    stressedmama Active Member

    Looking forward to the rest of the story. Soooo happy for you that it went well!
     
  18. PatriotsGirl

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    It is very, very religious based. They start their days off with church and end their days with church. She told me she experienced "deliverance" but that she had more to go. She said she didn't really believe everything they were telling her until that point. Let me say that I do believe in God, but have never studied religion. After first communion, I stopped going. There is so much that I do not know and am learning through her. BUT, I can honestly say that I saw a "lightness" in her Saturday. It is the best way I can describe it. She was so mature and just some of the things she was saying was so impressive. Two ladies from her favorite church (they preach at the jail and that is where they met and became close) came to visit her as well so I got to meet them. What beautiful people - just beautiful human beings...they were so unbelievably proud of her and kept telling her how wonderful she looked... They make me want to go to the church and we may just do that next Sunday. :)

    I asked questions and she answered. Like how she could use when she had no money. She confirmed what I had suspected - that she was selling. And then she broke down and cried over how she should have never put Connor around that. How he could have died. All of the what ifs that I agonized over, she was now, too. As she should. She needs to remember that.

    The real break through was talking through some of her past. I posted before about how she told me that my mother's husband molested her when they lived with us. I believed her because I knew I was supposed to but to be honest, part of me had questions. After talking to her Saturday, I whole heartedly believe her and there are no more doubts that it happened. I held her in my arms and aplogized for not doing my job to protect her and she completely broke down in sobs. Looking back, when she said it happened, that is when she really started getting into trouble - lighting the fire in the school bathroom, stealing, etc. It had to have been a cry for help and here I was blaming her - thinking something was wrong with her. I did not do my job. I did not see the signs. I did not protect her from the monster that lived right under our roof! How to forgive myself for that part, I do not know. She forgives me. She says I did the absolute best I could. I know that I obviously didn't. She says she has to forgive him to move on and that is the part she is stuck on. Me - I just don't know how that is possible. I want to see him die. I want to see him die a slow painful, tortured death. I don't know how one can trust that God will handle it in the end - I am not there and I suppose that is why one needs therapy. I am angry and I have a lot to work through with this. Time to find that therapist!

    So before family counseling started I had to bring Connor to the family dorm - where the mothers that have their children live. WOW. This house is nicer than ours!! One side of the house is a HUGE play room that is set up like a daycare. The other side is a huge living room with a large kitchen off of that, a dining room, bathrooms and then upstairs is all the bedrooms, full baths - it is just awesome. And there is something about being there. You just feel instantly comfortable. Connor obviously feels the same way. He walked in and walked right away from me and straight to checking the place out and playing with the other kids. He did not care about my leaving at all. When I came back to pick him up, he was asleep being held by the housemom. He climbed right up on the couch to her and went to sleep!! He missed his nap and it was a long day..

    I gave her the Christmas ornament that Connor had made - it is an imprint of his hand. You would have thought I gave her the world. She loved it so much. <3

    Family counseling was so cleansing. We discussed the bottle family - and it described the members of EVERY family (each bottle was dressed as a character). You could tell who you were in the mix - even a mixture of more than one and who the others in the family were. I don't plan on missing any sessions! It was so great. :)

    So, it was just an awesome weekend. I really feel closer to my daughter right now than I ever have. Man did we have a good hug and cry together when I apologized to her. It really, really makes me see her addiction in a whole different way. I see the part I played in her addiction and I see the parts that we all have played. Ugh. I was so dang self-riteous about her issues. How could she not have had issues?? I am just so happy that she is finally in the right place to heal.

    Connor's sleepever will be on the 13th - Valentine's weekend. :) We are going to get Connor something to give his momma...apparently they have kids' night once a month so every other visit will be an overnighter. Which means once a month husband and I get a night off! So now we begin to see her every other week which will make any later transition easier. She did say that she can never live in our area again. She thinks she may be better off staying out there or moving somewhere completely different. But, that is a ways away yet...

    MWM - I have to agree with you. She certainly does love her son more than anything in the entire world and being away from him is THE hardest part of her recovery. I think she IS going to make it. I felt something after I apologized to her. Something I should have done a long time ago. I hope she did, too. I hope I am doing my part in helping her heal because I think once she truly heals, she is going to be okay...

    Signed - one happy momma <3
     
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  19. toughlovin

    toughlovin Well-Known Member

    Oh PG I am so glad for you and for her and Connor..... and I just hope she keeps on going in this good direction.
     
  20. stressedmama

    stressedmama Active Member

    PG I am so happy for you...for all of you!
     
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