It will be 1 week today that my difficult child will be in a car heading back to Indiana to live with his father without me I have been crying on and off all week. This is so hard and I know alot of you have had to do this yourself. Does it get any easier? or worse. I'm desperate. My little 6 yr old tonight was crying because I told him and difficult child to stop fighing and closed both of their bedroom doors, well he was crying and difficult child came up and said he was crying. When I went into his room, he said he was scared with his door shut but didn't want to tell me or cry loud because he didn't want me "to get mad at me" and make me go live with daddy too. OMG I felt so horrible, I cried and explained that I wasn't sending difficult child to this dad's because he was bad (they have the same daddy) and difficult child was there too and he began crying and hugged his brother and said I love you and I'll miss you. It was such a raw moment. I just held their little hands and we held them all together and said we are a family no matter where we are and we will be together again soon. it helped us all I guess, but I'm just sick again. I can't even keep food down. This is so hard, and I think it's going to get worse and worse. How do you who have been there done that deal?