Just a small piece of a particular kind that I like. 'Cuz he loves me. And he doesn't care that I don't need it, he knows I need it sometimes. It is SO weird to have a happy, bubbly husband after having him be so volatile and unstable for the first 18 years we were together. I keep waiting for the good mood to end. And it's especially hard to take when my own mood is in sharp contrast to his like it has been for a while lately. I guess it's nice to be on the other end for a change and not having to be the emotional peacekeeper for this family. Trying to maintain everyone else's equilibrium was exhausting. Maybe that's what's finally hitting me. I don't have to play that role anymore and I can finally just let go. Hopefully this rut I'm in now will level out in time so I can join husband back on the upside of life.