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Hey, Cedar, or anyone interested in FOO (Family of Origin) issues. Cedar, WHY NOW???
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<blockquote data-quote="Copabanana" data-source="post: 660400" data-attributes="member: 18958"><p>Thank you SWOT. I had been just about to edit this post and to put in that I remembered that I am my own little flower. And I didn't forget. And I will take care of me. And I remembered that on my own. Even before you wrote back. Thank you SWOT.</p><p>What I am talking about here is this unfathomable sadness that he is not okay and the longer this goes on the more it seems he will never get better. And I seem unable to bear it, even if it is not my fault, it seems to me, it is my responsibility to fix it.</p><p></p><p>And the weird thing is this: There were always problems when he was growing up, but they were largely outside of the home, in school or daycare. They were not between us. I was able to bear everything that happened until lately. I do not know what changed. It must have to do with being depressed, so affected by my mother's death</p><p>I have been talking on the phone with a Psychiatrist for almost a year, I think. I went a few times, but he is a few hours away and it was hard to get there. I trust very few if any therapists. I was on Zoloft prescribed by my Internist, but it had no effect. This psychiatrist will not prescribe medication unless I go see him at certain intervals. I will talk to him about medication and/or go to someone here where I live for it. I will do that next week.</p><p></p><p>And I looked up Al Anon meetings and there are a couple within a mile away. I will go on Thursday.</p><p></p><p>Today is the first day of the rest of my life. And I am so grateful for what I have. That I have M. He is such a good and flawed man. He always interests me. I care deeply for him.</p><p></p><p>Today he is working late. So I am on my own. My son wants to come today to the house.</p><p></p><p>That makes it not a good day. If I am honest, that is what I feel. I do not feel up to dealing with him alone, and there are no days for the next week or so where M will be home, to make it easier.</p><p></p><p>I do not know how to handle that I do not want to see my son.</p><p></p><p>Thank you, SWOT. I will begin to approach every day with this task. To fill each day with things that make me happy.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Copabanana, post: 660400, member: 18958"] Thank you SWOT. I had been just about to edit this post and to put in that I remembered that I am my own little flower. And I didn't forget. And I will take care of me. And I remembered that on my own. Even before you wrote back. Thank you SWOT. What I am talking about here is this unfathomable sadness that he is not okay and the longer this goes on the more it seems he will never get better. And I seem unable to bear it, even if it is not my fault, it seems to me, it is my responsibility to fix it. And the weird thing is this: There were always problems when he was growing up, but they were largely outside of the home, in school or daycare. They were not between us. I was able to bear everything that happened until lately. I do not know what changed. It must have to do with being depressed, so affected by my mother's death I have been talking on the phone with a Psychiatrist for almost a year, I think. I went a few times, but he is a few hours away and it was hard to get there. I trust very few if any therapists. I was on Zoloft prescribed by my Internist, but it had no effect. This psychiatrist will not prescribe medication unless I go see him at certain intervals. I will talk to him about medication and/or go to someone here where I live for it. I will do that next week. And I looked up Al Anon meetings and there are a couple within a mile away. I will go on Thursday. Today is the first day of the rest of my life. And I am so grateful for what I have. That I have M. He is such a good and flawed man. He always interests me. I care deeply for him. Today he is working late. So I am on my own. My son wants to come today to the house. That makes it not a good day. If I am honest, that is what I feel. I do not feel up to dealing with him alone, and there are no days for the next week or so where M will be home, to make it easier. I do not know how to handle that I do not want to see my son. Thank you, SWOT. I will begin to approach every day with this task. To fill each day with things that make me happy. [/QUOTE]
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