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Hey, Cedar, or anyone interested in FOO (Family of Origin) issues. Cedar, WHY NOW???
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<blockquote data-quote="Copabanana" data-source="post: 661706" data-attributes="member: 18958"><p>SWOT, you are an angel. By this I mean I have not ever had better friends than are you and Cedar. I do not know if that says something bad about me or not.</p><p></p><p>Sometimes the only thing I look forward to is opening the computer and getting on this site. Honestly, it feels almost as good as having lady neighbors who I love, and can't wait to get to the yard and look over the fence each morning, to chat with you with my coffee in my hand. You on one side, and Cedar on the other. And then we all go in front of the house to sit on the porch.</p><p></p><p>That said, our experience with Amtrak is completely different. The longest trip we have taken is maybe 6 hours. Except for the time we killed a poor man en route, and the train became part of a crime scene, the delays have been relatively short. We like the comfort of the train, that you can walk around. Almost always I meet people on the train, and have deep and helpful conversations about important and intimate things. That I remember for a long time, and that have helped me. Particularly about my mother's death.</p><p></p><p>I find if you talk to people honestly they will often answer you honestly--if they are strangers and will never see you again.</p><p></p><p>We are likely to take the train across country when we go. Even though Greyhound will only cost $129 or so one way. Amtrak is more than twice that.</p><p></p><p>We hate Greyhound because of delays. In our part of the country they could care less. We get so furious. To spare ourselves that it is almost worth the savings.</p><p></p><p>I am glad that you arrived safely. The yard sounds really nice. Make sure you really give yourself a vacation and lay around outside, if you can.</p><p></p><p>Try to keep us posted about how it is going with Junior and Bart. We are all so invested in the activities. I want to know how that goes for you.</p><p></p><p>About M. I am so grateful for your take on things. Sometimes all one needs to do is tell somebody. Get it out. Because when it is inside it can be so shaming. I feel like such a weight is off of me. </p><p></p><p>I forgot to mention it. But the evil sister and her husband, before M met me tried as much as they could to exploit him or took advantage of his love and sense of responsibility. She lost out big time with our relationship. She lost M's support by her bad behavior towards us. And she lost her source of free labor. </p><p></p><p>For a time I hired her husband to drive me to work and back when I was afraid to drive. I paid him $100 a day for about 4 hours of work. He started driving fast when I asked him not to. I found somebody to do it for $50 a day who listened to what scared me. She got mad and insisted the work was properly theirs. That I should use her husband and pay him $100.</p><p></p><p>That she would talk bad about our relationship is hardly surprising. In fact she has tried to do this to me. </p><p></p><p>I almost feel like getting up and doing something constructive. I may.</p><p></p><p>Now I am seeing how much I am deliberating punishing myself. And I have not yet discovered just what is my crime.</p><p></p><p>It must have to do with the distress of my son and my inability to help him. How much it hurts me that he suffers so.</p><p></p><p>Still I do not know why I do this to myself. How does it help to kill myself off, if I feel he as at risk? Not at all.</p><p></p><p>Thank you again, SWOT. I will try to do something. Even a little bit to help myself and not hurt myself.</p><p></p><p>COPA</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Copabanana, post: 661706, member: 18958"] SWOT, you are an angel. By this I mean I have not ever had better friends than are you and Cedar. I do not know if that says something bad about me or not. Sometimes the only thing I look forward to is opening the computer and getting on this site. Honestly, it feels almost as good as having lady neighbors who I love, and can't wait to get to the yard and look over the fence each morning, to chat with you with my coffee in my hand. You on one side, and Cedar on the other. And then we all go in front of the house to sit on the porch. That said, our experience with Amtrak is completely different. The longest trip we have taken is maybe 6 hours. Except for the time we killed a poor man en route, and the train became part of a crime scene, the delays have been relatively short. We like the comfort of the train, that you can walk around. Almost always I meet people on the train, and have deep and helpful conversations about important and intimate things. That I remember for a long time, and that have helped me. Particularly about my mother's death. I find if you talk to people honestly they will often answer you honestly--if they are strangers and will never see you again. We are likely to take the train across country when we go. Even though Greyhound will only cost $129 or so one way. Amtrak is more than twice that. We hate Greyhound because of delays. In our part of the country they could care less. We get so furious. To spare ourselves that it is almost worth the savings. I am glad that you arrived safely. The yard sounds really nice. Make sure you really give yourself a vacation and lay around outside, if you can. Try to keep us posted about how it is going with Junior and Bart. We are all so invested in the activities. I want to know how that goes for you. About M. I am so grateful for your take on things. Sometimes all one needs to do is tell somebody. Get it out. Because when it is inside it can be so shaming. I feel like such a weight is off of me. I forgot to mention it. But the evil sister and her husband, before M met me tried as much as they could to exploit him or took advantage of his love and sense of responsibility. She lost out big time with our relationship. She lost M's support by her bad behavior towards us. And she lost her source of free labor. For a time I hired her husband to drive me to work and back when I was afraid to drive. I paid him $100 a day for about 4 hours of work. He started driving fast when I asked him not to. I found somebody to do it for $50 a day who listened to what scared me. She got mad and insisted the work was properly theirs. That I should use her husband and pay him $100. That she would talk bad about our relationship is hardly surprising. In fact she has tried to do this to me. I almost feel like getting up and doing something constructive. I may. Now I am seeing how much I am deliberating punishing myself. And I have not yet discovered just what is my crime. It must have to do with the distress of my son and my inability to help him. How much it hurts me that he suffers so. Still I do not know why I do this to myself. How does it help to kill myself off, if I feel he as at risk? Not at all. Thank you again, SWOT. I will try to do something. Even a little bit to help myself and not hurt myself. COPA [/QUOTE]
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