Hi. I'm new. I'm coming here because I just came from the principal's office of my son's kindergarten summer school. The principal thinks my son, who is nearly 6, might have O.D.D. Unfortunately, I think she may be right. I am devastated. I grew up as a 'bad kid'. I was exceptionally bright, but had trouble doing as I was told. I had assumed my behavior was the result of my parents' acrimonious divorce, and my mother's resultant psychological abuse, but my son is exhibiting many of the same behaviors, so now I am not so sure. My relationship with his father is a good one, and as both he and I were victims of abuse growing up, we have tried very hard to make our home a happy and healthy one. I want my son to be happy and healthy, and right now I feel very discouraged. I feel like my screwed-up DNA is responsible for his troubles in life, and I am angry and sad, because I never wanted him to go through what I went through growing up. He is a wonderful, caring, delightful, creative, and off-the-charts bright child. Too bright. And I want a good life for him. I will take the principal's advice and seek counseling for my son; and his father and I will do anything we can to help him, because that's the oly thing truly important to either of us. But I have a problem with medicating one so young, whose brain is still forming, and because I was misdiagnosed and mismedicated so often (with disastrous personal results) growing up, I am gunshy of psychiatric drugs. As sad as I am, I am almost relieved. He's been so difficult at times; and in such a way that I almost feel like he can't help it--that's it's not on purpose, but is the result of some kind of chemical imbalance causing his rage to build into an unmanageable level. It breaks my heart, because when he is not angry he is the most beautiful, well-mannered, happy, sociable child. He truly cares about other kids, and he makes friends easily. He has such a bright future if we can get him help. Everything I read about O.D.D. seems so dire, like he is destined for a criminal and antisocial life. I feel so discouraged right now, and I just needed other people who are experiencing the same thing to vent to. It sucks when you're not enough for your child's needs. And it's supremely frightening to me to send my kid into the mouth of an industry that caused me nothing but pain growing up. I just have to keep reminding myself that I am not my mother, and I will not abandon him like she did me.