I realize that as we age time seems to speed up, the older you are, the faster it seems to go. Well.......not quite sure how to put this, but I'll try. Once I got through the shock/intense grieving of husband's death......and basically really got back to getting on with life, I have an issue. It seems that life is going at the speed of light, and somehow I'm not in sync. Think speed of light compared to say a turtle. Now don't get me wrong, I'm doing so much better, honestly. I'm working hard and getting stuff done and such and yeah that is a good thing. But still, I can NOT get rid of this feeling that the world around me is going on much much faster than I am. And quite frankly, I'm finding it hard to keep up. Sometimes impossible to keep up. Like to me I just paid the monthly bills. (I do them all at once so I don't forget) But it's nearly time to pay them again. In my "world" I just took Maggie to the vet for her shots.......yet 3 wks have passed. When I see that on a calendar I'm like wth? where did it go and where was I? Know what I mean?? I don't recall having this outside of the normal "older you get faster time goes" thing while in school. There were schedules to keep and deadlines to meet and such, so even if I felt it was going to fast (sometimes I did but not like this), there was something there to keep me on track. Now? Feels almost like I'm standing on the sidelines because the track is too fast for me to climb aboard. Trust me, it can get mighty overwhelming at times too. Not to mention a bit unnerving. This is going to sound odd, but I seriously can't recall if it was an issue before school or not. (that short term memory deal of mine) I know it would appear during school breaks though because I'd be like really? it just started! LOL And yes, it's been causing a few panic attacks lately. That's not a huge issue because so far I can still talk myself down no problem. Ever heard of such a thing?