I feel so strectched out right now. Both my boys and husband all have ADHD with-CD. I decided that I was fed up with the school system and having to deal with the problems that would happen at school concerning my kids. I was fed up with having to deal with the homework that was sent home. So....I decided to homeschool and thought that moving would also improve our lives. Right now I'm not sure how to turn now. I know that a large upheaval in my family that occurred within the first months of the change (which was very complicating)has had a huge outcome of it's affects. It has been very frustrating for me though since nothing has improved. My husband has not been supportive of the homeschooling and wants me to send the kids back to regular school. Mostly because the houswork has taken a backseat, and he is bitter at the fact that we are so in debt, and I won't work (I don't like supporting his habits). He also expresses the disgust at how the children are not at the levels of schooled children. He feels that he shouldn't have housework responsibilities, and leaves messes wherever he has been. I know this sounds pretty bad, I will say though that he does work alot of hours, and once in awhile does a little bit of clean up (with complaining about the "pigsty") and does do some parenting. I however feel it isn't enough.
My children are turning into miniatures of my husband, and are getting harder to get control of. Part of their problem of not being up to level in school work is because of the upheaval, (my husband was the cause) and their disabilities. I have tried everything to get them heading in the right direction, but have felt it has been futile. I am very unhappy, and feeling that I will never be happy again if I don't do something. Expressing my thoughts and feelings have not made any changes, and trying to get them to become responsible for their actions have been to no avail. I feel like leaving them, but my maternal instincts have a hold of me too much. I have too much love, caring, morals, and am slowly losing my patience. How can anyone leave their family? I just am at a loss. We have had different interventions, but nothing has had any effect. I get so frustrated with the three of them, it is as though they couldn't care less. Yeah, they show remorse at the time I lose it, but that doesn't change anything. I try to take time for myself, but that doesn't solve the problem. I have tried, but I can't control how they are. And if they don't take responsiblity, that leaves me holding the bag. But for how long??????????Love can only hold on for so long. Anyone else in this predicament?
My children are turning into miniatures of my husband, and are getting harder to get control of. Part of their problem of not being up to level in school work is because of the upheaval, (my husband was the cause) and their disabilities. I have tried everything to get them heading in the right direction, but have felt it has been futile. I am very unhappy, and feeling that I will never be happy again if I don't do something. Expressing my thoughts and feelings have not made any changes, and trying to get them to become responsible for their actions have been to no avail. I feel like leaving them, but my maternal instincts have a hold of me too much. I have too much love, caring, morals, and am slowly losing my patience. How can anyone leave their family? I just am at a loss. We have had different interventions, but nothing has had any effect. I get so frustrated with the three of them, it is as though they couldn't care less. Yeah, they show remorse at the time I lose it, but that doesn't change anything. I try to take time for myself, but that doesn't solve the problem. I have tried, but I can't control how they are. And if they don't take responsiblity, that leaves me holding the bag. But for how long??????????Love can only hold on for so long. Anyone else in this predicament?