Do any of you have some good tips on dealing with loss and grief? I seem to be on a rollercoaster. One day is ok... then, the next day I just wish to end it all. I am so hurt, angry, lonely and feeling rejected. My boys, especially difficult child#2, seem to no longer want me in their life. Seems they have always been excited to see their Dad, after all, I supported that relationship and promoted it as well. Now, Dad is never to be without and they tell me they just want distance. Should I just accept that they are like dead children and move on with my life? How do you get through feeling so rejected and hurt? I feel so robbed that I did everything for them. I raised them pretty much alone. I let their Dad be "Disneyland Dad" just so they could have him in their life. He undermined me all along. I just can't get over feeling kicked in the teeth for being a proper parent, supporting them, loving them and never wavering. Maybe they are seeking him out because they are struggling to win his love and support... which they never really got. To their Dad, they are simply playmates and their for HIS needs. He has never cared about how they do in activities, school, etc. Only that they go over and play "dirt bikes" with him. They used to even tell me, "Dad doesn't want to see my report card, he doesn't care." when I'd tell them to bring him a copy. difficult child#2 told me two weeks ago, "you had me for 16 years, so we just need distance." This hurt so bad. It makes me want for them to feel the rejection I do. I know this is wrong so I've said nothing and honored his wish. How do I get over this? Ideas?