I have not posted in a while, as life ebbs and flows - things seemed to really improve for a while. School is out here and Blue is having a hard time transitioning to summer - he starts 1/2 day summer school in 2 weeks. Today was the first time he has been violent in a long time. It was a pretty bad tantrum over a snack that ended up with me getting a good kick in the shoulder. My shoulder hurts pretty bad and my heart hurts worse. He cried all afternoon saying "don't leave me" and "I'm sorry so sorry" - he felt so bad for losing it. I am at such a loss ...in shock... I feel angry and hurt and am questioning myself as to what I could have done or should have done differently. I am in pain and I don't even want to think about having to explain to my doctor that my 8 year old injured my shoulder. I was feeling very low and remembered this group. I came back and here you are...people who live lives like me with children like mine and somehow I don't feel so alone.