son wm. Our first visit since the end of June was emotional & heart lifting. wm was, understandably, upset at my new appearance; how this illness has affected my body. He's scared. For the first time in a very very long time, if ever, I saw true emotions out of my son. wm & I got to share moments of fear, love & laughter. He left the room so he wouldn't cry in front of me; he didn't want me to be concerned. His Integrated Listening Systems (ILS) therapist went with wm & helped him work through all the sadness & emotion. I had to work through some emotions of my own with our attachment/adoption specialist. It was a long & draining session. As the tears cleared I got to ask wm about one of his favorite topics - games for his gameboy. I am using a gameboy to help with coordination & other issues. wm has promised to research games that I would enjoy (definitely not Zelda, mom). I'll believe you son. The most emotional part of our appointment. wm & his therapist asked if they could walk me out to my car & help with my walker. I gladly accepted; wm walked down the stairs in front of me - holding onto my walker to make sure I didn't fall on the icy sidewalks. From there he walked on my side - again holding on to my arm & my walker. Again there were grins & tears from attachment/adoption specialist, Integrated Listening Systems (ILS) therapist & myself. wm was too involved & concerned to notice. kt & wm have their first visit next Wednesday with their Integrated Listening Systems (ILS) tdocs & attachment/adoption therapist. We expect things to get worse before they get better however neither husband or I will be at these meetings for a few months. It's all about teaching the tweedles to be safe siblings with one another. Thank you for all the good thoughts & prayers on wm's behalf. Today he made me proud; today I saw true emotion - love out of my son's eyes.