I thought I was doing better than I am. I am a bundle of emotions today and can't seem to shake this overwhelming feeling of doom. difficult child has signed a lease for an apartment in a very old and run down area. She is moving in on Thursday although she has no furniture, not even a lamp, so I'm not sure what she is going to do. I can't sleep, I keep thinking about all the things she should be thinking about. I'm sure she has no idea what it is going to cost or even how to call to have utilities turned on. My easy child moved into her own apartment in October and husband and I loved helping get her set up but in this case I have no good feelings and I feel bad that I can't help her get started. I can't keep helping her move from place to place and then watching it all fall apart in four months.
She will no longer be surrounded by sober people. One of the things she told me in a text was that she wanted to start a real life. That tells me her real life does not have room for recovery or program meetings.
This is so sad fpr me because it was exacty a year ago when we kicked her out of the house and she was living with the neighbor and I believe St. Patty's Day was the beginning of her bottom when she was in a blackout for two days.
I hate this, I really really hate it. It would be easier if she moved away to another city. I have to stop crying and remembering the 3C's.
She didn't call me for the AA meeting last night and I missed that and it also told me a lot about where her head is.
Nancy
She will no longer be surrounded by sober people. One of the things she told me in a text was that she wanted to start a real life. That tells me her real life does not have room for recovery or program meetings.
This is so sad fpr me because it was exacty a year ago when we kicked her out of the house and she was living with the neighbor and I believe St. Patty's Day was the beginning of her bottom when she was in a blackout for two days.
I hate this, I really really hate it. It would be easier if she moved away to another city. I have to stop crying and remembering the 3C's.
She didn't call me for the AA meeting last night and I missed that and it also told me a lot about where her head is.
Nancy