Hi, mothers, I'm new here. I have 3 children 1 girl 13 1/2, and 2 boys ages 12,9. I'm here to get some advice on my daughter. She has me at the end of the rope. I love her very much as I do my boys. She hasn't had the best years of her life, never meeting her father, me going through marriages that didn't work, basically I'm all she has. I've always kinda put her on a pedestal, I guess I felt bad for her not having a dad around, or maybe cause she's my first child, honestly I do know I have spoiled her ROTTEN. She comes first sadly before anyone. Her behavior is terrible, I do believe she is depressed. She throws tantrum worse than a 2 year old, literally laying on the floor kicking. I have a hard time believing this is my child. Her tantrums are usually over cleaning her room or homework. It's bizzare. She doesn't like anyone, I constantly find her writing bad about me, she is obsessed with her weight which she is skinny as they come, but no one could ever tell her that. She started watching about a little over a year ago kids cutting on u tube. I didn't know she was doing such till I found a razor blade underneath where she was laying when we were staying in a hotel on her b day getaway. I talked with her and of course I was very worried and I believed we got through that. I was wrong. I just again found out she is cutting not her arm but now her legs not to the point of blood cause she is deathly scared of the site of blood and passes out, she implies that all girls do it! I do know thats not true. I don't know where to start with some kind of therapy for her. counselor? Psychiatrist? Yesterday I saw a video she made of herself on my computer but it was in the recycle bin, she was crying, about how she hated her life and hated everyone. She said she couldnt take anymore, and kinda insinuating she was or had taken some pills... but I know she has no pills. She said she knows I dont love her and her brothers hate her. Which is ALL a lie, I've taken her to counseling before only for her to go in and say nothing! She tells me if I take her to a DR... he will give her happy pills. I don't believe that to be true, I have suffered from depression and anxiety all my life and know theres no pill to take away your past, I know theres really no HAPPY pill out there or everyone would be on it. I try to talk with her but she says you don't understand. I wish there was something I could say and do better, but no matter what I do for her it ends up meaning nothing to her. She isolates herself in her room and is either on her cell or computer. I would like to take that away from her, but then she would go into freak out mode. I have had to call the cops on her before at the time she wasnt 12 and she had kicked me and the cop said if he got a call back and she was 12 he would take her to juvenile hall, she disrupts the peace in my home continuously, please HELP!