This is not difficult child related, but husband related. He is killing me. He is not the same man I married. He plays softball in 2 leagues and is away more than he ever used to be. It will end soon (the season). He's staying out late (again) and he's drinking more (he's never been a big drinker, nor stayed out like this before). He abused me Fri night. I provoked, but he crossed the line. His behavior is becoming more and more erratic. Not a drug issue, but not good. He's been unemployed since 2008. We've been together for over 20 yrs. He just came home as I write this and I am worried. difficult child is tough, nothing like we've ever dealt with-in our lives. I can't take it anymore and want to go away, way away to the point of death. I am hurt, am sad and want to go, but I love him (difficult child) & husband. I am hurt am not sure what the next step should be. I think I want to leave him.