I feel HORRIBLE

[Steely]

I don't think I have felt this sick in forever!!!! And I have no idea what is wrong.

My boss had the flu, so it could be partly the flu. I also stopped Xanax Monday, so it could partly be that. But oh good god! This is ridiculous.

I have so many symptoms that I will not list them all, or bore you - I will just tell you I am not throwing up. Everything else I have, including a fever. Shaky hands, spacey head, sore throat, numbness, poor coordination, etc. I could literally have anything.

I feel awful, in every part of my body - and my boss wants me to leave tomorrow for a 5 day business trip in the middle of nowhere. There is not a Dr for 300 miles. Not even a hospital. It is literally in the middle of the desert. I feel like she is already disappointed in me, for some reason, I am not sure why. And so I feel like I need to go on this trip, and not be a weak baby by being sick.

In addition, I am second guessing moving here. This town does have a hospital at least, but beyond that, there are only 3 doctors in the whole town - so the medical help is slim. It scares me. I am so alone out here. What if something really bad happened, and I couldn't drive myself to the Dr? We don't even have taxis here. I am feeling very alone and trapped and scared. (And of course Matt is NOT doing well. Why is that always the case? When I am down, he is down.)

Anyway, thanks for listening to my whiney vent. I needed to vent to the closest thing I have to a family.

 

[gcvmom]

No chance of postponing the trip a few days? Surely your boss is human and should know it's not a good idea for you to be travelling sick.

I hope you beat this bug soon! Sending you some homemade chicken soup and some hot tea with honey and lemon, a warm blanket and a big hug!

 

[1905]

I don't think you should risk going if you're sick. Tell your boss you think you have what she had- surely she can be sympathetic since she's had it recently. You can't do your work sick! Plus, it's scarey being stranded sick. We have to take care of ourselves, no one else will!! Then go to a Dr., or just rest until Monday, then go.

As for moving there, don't let those reasons dissuade you. They can always get you to another town, or city, for some specialist if something were to go wrong, or if you needed tests. You'l still have someone there to treat everyday, minor things.

Take care of you. I'm sending you some oreo's, chocolate chip cookies, and tastycakes to go with your tea, and warm blanket. (cookies always make me feel better)

 

[KTMom91]

Sending healing vibes...and orange juice, chicken soup, hot tea with honey...and kleenex and cold pills.

 

[Lothlorien]

Did you stop Xanax cold turkey? If you did, it would be my guess that it's withdrawl. How high is your fever? If it's higher than 101, I would get yourself to an ER. They can check for flu and give you the antiviral. I hope you feel better soon.

 

[Suz]

My boss had the flu, so it could be partly the flu. I also stopped Xanax Monday, so it could partly be that.

In addition, I am second guessing moving here.

It scares me. I am so alone out here. What if something really bad happened, and I couldn't drive myself to the Dr? We don't even have taxis here. I am feeling very alone and trapped and scared.

Dr. Suz diagnoses a combination of flu (maybe, but more likely....) and medication withdrawal...plus major anxiety. Okay, so I'm not a doctor but I've felt this way so I certainly recognize the symptoms.

Steely, if what you are feeling is overwhelming, you can go to the ER for medications to carry you through until you can get a medication evaluation to help you live with your anxiety and panic disorder (been there done that).

This stinks. I'm really sorry. I know how difficult it is.

Hugs,
Suz

 

[totoro]

Crud
If you do go, maybe take some of those e-mergency packets with you, ibuprofin or what ever you like to take. Any of your other vitamins, especially ones like b-12 etc.
I am so sorry you are stuck having to make this choice.
I really hope the thoughts you are having regarding the way your boss is feeling is just you wanting to do a good job and feeling insecure because of how horribly you have been feeling.
I just want things to go well for you and Matt so badly.