My difficult child called me this AM - he was released from Baker Acting himself - and has no place to go - no money - no car - absolutely nothing. All of the homeless shelters are full and he says that he has no friends left, they don't like girlie. I told him no wonder they don't like her she is a b****. His sister and I talked during the summer about her being very controlling and trying to cut him off from family and friends. It's not entirely her fault - it takes two and he is a follower. I have tried calling his friends to see if they can pick him up and he can stay with them for a while. The two I am trying to reach are life long friends. There is no way he can live with me - no place to work and no way for counseling in this small town. Which is in my favor because I do not want him here! I am so tired of him and his drama and all of the messes he gets into!!!! I don't hear from him for long periods of time, he doesn't remember Mother's Day, my birthday, or Christmas, but he sure as hell will call when he screws everything up and he is on the ground. The only time he was making an effort was 1 year ago for about 1 year. He was clean and sober and apologizing for being a crummy kid, I really enjoyed talking to him, it was the first time I could say that for a very long time! But his thinking is screwd up - how does he think he can go to school full time and not work. When I talked to him this week he was trying to think of a way to stay in school - I had to keep telling him YOU HAVE NO MEANS OF SUPPORT - YOU HAVE TO GET A JOB!!! I just could not help getting angry and telling him I have had it at 33yo he still acts like a two year old and the world doesn't revolve around him. I was close to yelling and I told him he had to get into counseling and grow up, that he is 33yo and has nothing to show for it. It had been 3 hours and he was suppossed to call me back to see if I had reached anyone and he hasn't called. I guess he is mad at me for yelling, but I am so frustrated at this immature brat! I don't know what else to do for him or with him - the chances of him getting help in Winter Haven are slim because it is so small - he has to get to Orlando about an hours drive away. Yes, I'm upset because it never ends with him. I am trying very hard today to say it is his problem and he will find a way. It does make me feel like a failure as a parent - but I know that we ALL have to take responsibility for our lives - especially at his age. I think the constant threats of suicide when he fights with girlie are just threats, and they did release him. I'm just so tired of every thing!!!