I feel like a terrible mother, but I just don't like my 5 year old difficult child. At all. I have no patience for her at all anymore, and she is just plain nasty and mean. I've given up. We don't have our evaluation with the developmental pediatrician until October, and I hope I don't lose it before then. Thank god I'm going back to work in 2 weeks, cause that's all I can take. husband is working 10 hour days, and doesn't get home until 7. That's 13 hours with her everyday. I am trying to hug her when she is tantruming, but I really feel like slapping her across the face for her talking back. I mean, how do you let a 5 year old call you an idiot and tell you she hates you and then respond with a hug? I just can't do it -- I don't mean it. Help me -- how can I change this?