I really still don't know what to do. I am now having auditory hallucinations, specifically phones ringing, that are not there, as well as some other stuff. I can't breathe every time something stressful happens. What the freak am I supposed to do? I have upped my therapy to twice a week, but I just can't live like this anymore. I think most of it stems around Matt's roller coaster in Residential Treatment Center (RTC), and his life in general - the anniversary of H's death - and the crazy making work environment. But when I wake up out of bed, cold, dead, awake, because I believe the phone is ringing - and I run to answer it, and it never rang............ Or I go to answer my phone, and it never rang because it was only the music on the radio........ Or I hear someone call my name, and there is no one there......... Then I know something is really, really wrong. What do I do? I have medications. I have therapy, and yet I am on the brink. I guess maybe I do not understand enough about what PTSD really is? I know it can produce all the things I am feeling or experiencing, I just do not know how to stop it.