Steely
Active Member
I really still don't know what to do.
I am now having auditory hallucinations, specifically phones ringing, that are not there, as well as some other stuff.
I can't breathe every time something stressful happens.
What the freak am I supposed to do?
I have upped my therapy to twice a week, but I just can't live like this anymore.
I think most of it stems around Matt's roller coaster in Residential Treatment Center (RTC), and his life in general - the anniversary of H's death - and the crazy making work environment.
But when I wake up out of bed, cold, dead, awake, because I believe the phone is ringing - and I run to answer it, and it never rang............
Or I go to answer my phone, and it never rang because it was only the music on the radio........
Or I hear someone call my name, and there is no one there.........
Then I know something is really, really wrong.
What do I do? I have medications. I have therapy, and yet I am on the brink. I guess maybe I do not understand enough about what PTSD really is? I know it can produce all the things I am feeling or experiencing, I just do not know how to stop it.
I am now having auditory hallucinations, specifically phones ringing, that are not there, as well as some other stuff.
I can't breathe every time something stressful happens.
What the freak am I supposed to do?
I have upped my therapy to twice a week, but I just can't live like this anymore.
I think most of it stems around Matt's roller coaster in Residential Treatment Center (RTC), and his life in general - the anniversary of H's death - and the crazy making work environment.
But when I wake up out of bed, cold, dead, awake, because I believe the phone is ringing - and I run to answer it, and it never rang............
Or I go to answer my phone, and it never rang because it was only the music on the radio........
Or I hear someone call my name, and there is no one there.........
Then I know something is really, really wrong.
What do I do? I have medications. I have therapy, and yet I am on the brink. I guess maybe I do not understand enough about what PTSD really is? I know it can produce all the things I am feeling or experiencing, I just do not know how to stop it.