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<blockquote data-quote="DammitJanet" data-source="post: 588894" data-attributes="member: 1514"><p>Okay, I read your other post and I will give you a short synopsis of why I understand his issues.</p><p></p><p>I have suffered with both of these issues for the past 30 years. I never had a name for them of course. I was abused for most of my life at the hands of my mother and a few times at the hands of my father. When I was 18 I was force-ably kidnapped at knife point along with my best friend and gang raped by two black men. Then the police ridiculed us on the way to the hospital about how we deserved it, and then at the hospital her parents blamed me and said I set it up. It was a horrible time in my life. Her parents immediately sent her away and I was never allowed to see her again so I lost my best friend on that night too along with everything else that happened. </p><p></p><p>After that I lost myself for a long long time. I became a complete shell of the girl I had been. I was empty and I couldnt even function normally. For years I didnt know feel me. My mother moved a guy into my house almost immediately after the rape....literally one month after the event and she said what I needed to get over what had happened to me was a good roll in the hay. I was so out of it I didnt have the where with all to say no. I ended up pregnant with my first son and honestly was so dead inside I didnt even realize that they set up the wedding with the justice of the peace at the courthouse. I was dead. Everything was just a blur until the baby was born and I woke up to realize this man was a piece of dog manure and he had to go.</p><p></p><p>Over the next 30 years I have had periods of these episodes. One of the worst ones was sitting in my bedroom when the boys were young and I saw blood dripping down the walls and the curtains had faces in them laughing at me. I was convinced the blood was the blood of my boys. It scared me so badly that I never physically spanked my boys again because I was afraid that premonition would come true.</p><p></p><p>I have also had periods of time where I have left a store or appointment and ended up at home and have no idea how I got there. absolutely no clue. I dont have any memory of the drive home. </p><p></p><p>When I came home from my meningitis I had quite a long time where my pots and pans talked to me A LOT. And the can goods in the grocery store did too. It was so freaky I couldnt go to the store alone. I also talk to myself in my head constantly when I am alone. I dont know if that is normal or not. My brain never shuts off. My pots and pans and the canned goods isle have finally shut up Im happy to say...lol. It did take a course of antipsychotics though.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="DammitJanet, post: 588894, member: 1514"] Okay, I read your other post and I will give you a short synopsis of why I understand his issues. I have suffered with both of these issues for the past 30 years. I never had a name for them of course. I was abused for most of my life at the hands of my mother and a few times at the hands of my father. When I was 18 I was force-ably kidnapped at knife point along with my best friend and gang raped by two black men. Then the police ridiculed us on the way to the hospital about how we deserved it, and then at the hospital her parents blamed me and said I set it up. It was a horrible time in my life. Her parents immediately sent her away and I was never allowed to see her again so I lost my best friend on that night too along with everything else that happened. After that I lost myself for a long long time. I became a complete shell of the girl I had been. I was empty and I couldnt even function normally. For years I didnt know feel me. My mother moved a guy into my house almost immediately after the rape....literally one month after the event and she said what I needed to get over what had happened to me was a good roll in the hay. I was so out of it I didnt have the where with all to say no. I ended up pregnant with my first son and honestly was so dead inside I didnt even realize that they set up the wedding with the justice of the peace at the courthouse. I was dead. Everything was just a blur until the baby was born and I woke up to realize this man was a piece of dog manure and he had to go. Over the next 30 years I have had periods of these episodes. One of the worst ones was sitting in my bedroom when the boys were young and I saw blood dripping down the walls and the curtains had faces in them laughing at me. I was convinced the blood was the blood of my boys. It scared me so badly that I never physically spanked my boys again because I was afraid that premonition would come true. I have also had periods of time where I have left a store or appointment and ended up at home and have no idea how I got there. absolutely no clue. I dont have any memory of the drive home. When I came home from my meningitis I had quite a long time where my pots and pans talked to me A LOT. And the can goods in the grocery store did too. It was so freaky I couldnt go to the store alone. I also talk to myself in my head constantly when I am alone. I dont know if that is normal or not. My brain never shuts off. My pots and pans and the canned goods isle have finally shut up Im happy to say...lol. It did take a course of antipsychotics though. [/QUOTE]
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