i really do need it. there is something here in new york i can apply for until i finally find hopefully a ft job with benfits again. yet right now there is absolutely nothing out there. i have vision problems. i found out back in april that i needed glasses. i'm far and near sighted. i was still working at the time. yet what had occured wasn't anything having to do wtih the vision. i got off the lirr and i went totally blurry, i also tripped before that happened my ankle gave out on me (this has happened quite alot before). anyhow i've been blurry now for the past day or so. it started yesterday it gets soo bad at times i can make out figures i dont' go totally black but i can't do any detail. it comes in waves, i'll be fine for a while than suddenly the vision thing will hit and i'll be aching and kinda dragging my body also and i experience virtigo as well. I went to dr. mos ago my white blood cell count was up, we ran more tests he thought inititally luekemia, yet now he believes it to be ms. there are shots for this i beleive i have discussed it on the board before. Yet i think it's time now i go get insurance for myself, difficult child has already through ex and go to neuro guy to have them run the test. alrite i just wanted to share this. goes to show how i totally don't take care of me, huh...?