I have absolutely HAD it!!! I cannot handle difficult child 1 for another minute but I have no choice because there's no where I can go and no one I can talk to. I am soooo alone and I HATE it. He has been an absolute PITA all day today. He complained because HE "didn't get to pick" what subject they were going to work on first (I plan that so there's no fighting over it). He complained that difficult child 2 did a lesson without him (because he'd been sent to his room for arguing, yelling, etc). All difficult child 2 had left was the 2 subjects they normally do together. He got MAD because difficult child 2 "didn't wait" for him. I refuse to make difficult child 2 wait for difficult child 1. On Tuesdays, difficult child 2 volunteers from 10-12. During that time, difficult child 1 does the other subjects so when difficult child 2 gets home, ALL he has left is the 2 lessons they do together. difficult child 1 insists that difficult child 2 "was supposed to wait for me because I always have to wait for him on Tuesdays". His logic makes absolutely NO sense. He doesn't have to watch TV or read a book or play a game or actually sit and wait on Tuesdays like difficult child 2 would have had to do today. It's been one thing right after another. No sooner is he calm and back downstairs than he starts with the comments and complaints that escalate to him going right back up to his room again. After 6 hours of dealing with this BS, I lost it. I paddled his backside and yelled and completely came unglued. I hate myself for giving in to the emotions and stress. He has pushed me too far too many times. He was definitely MUCH more stuck than ever and NOTHING was getting through to him today. He just could NOT get it under control....but then again, I guess neither did I. Days like this REALLY hoover and it's the kind of day when I REALLY wish any and all of you lived anywhere near me.