I had my dr. appointment tonight. The good news is, he agreed to give me a meal plan to stay at 100 pounds- when I get there. Right now I'm 93. He doesn't have an opening in his program right now, I have to wait a few weeks. That's fine, I'm off for a week and a half and everything will be ok. As soon as he has an opening, I'm in. For tomorrow, I'm working and it's only a half day. husband and I went to PF Chang's for dinner and I'm full and feeling good. Tomorrow I'll freak out and be mad at myself I'm sure, but for now I'm doing well. That first step was the hardest. Thank you for letting me vent to you all. Nobody in real life knows this and I am so glad I can let this out to understanding ears.