For those who sent children away for extended lengths of time .... do you ever struggle with your decision to do so? We began the nightmare almost 5 years ago. Made her long term placement almost 4 years ago. She has been home over two years. By most standards she is doing well. She is happy. That's her. Me? Sometimes out of the blue I wrestle with this overwhelming sense of guilt. Parental failure? The sense that I abandoned her? Can't quite articulate it actually. She harbors no ill will. We have a wonderful relationship. But, in those deep places in my heart I still have a raw wound. And truthfully, I don't get it. I don't know what to do about it. Thoughts?