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<blockquote data-quote="Diabolique" data-source="post: 172456" data-attributes="member: 5512"><p>Thanks for the words of support, tiredmommy. Really, I've realized that this is bigger than me, this isn't just a matter of me getting tougher or developing the ability to let things roll off my back. I am not usually one to crack this easily, and it usually takes quite a bit to make me cry -- let alone break into hysterical sobbing that I can't stop. So, enough is enough. I can't help my son if I can't help myself. Before I spin even more out of control and can't drag myself out of the black hole, it's time to seek some help for myself so that I can do what my son needs me to do in order to help him. </p><p> </p><p>It's my job to take care of him and to advocate for him. I am his first line of defense and the person who is responsible for getting him what he needs. I can't do any of those things if I am so emotionally raw that I can't get through a phone conversation without becoming hysterical and hyperventilating. My son deserves better than a mother who has become a basket case. </p><p> </p><p>I haven't been to any kind of mental health professional in about 10 years. I don't even remember what it was like, so I don't know what to expect. I guess I ought to go armed with the mental health history in my family, which I found out over the weekend is more "interesting" than I had previously been told. The problems are far more extensive than I thought. </p><p> </p><p>I don't know. I just want someone to help me so that I can help my son. I want my son back and I want myself back. Right now, I feel like we're both lost.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Diabolique, post: 172456, member: 5512"] Thanks for the words of support, tiredmommy. Really, I've realized that this is bigger than me, this isn't just a matter of me getting tougher or developing the ability to let things roll off my back. I am not usually one to crack this easily, and it usually takes quite a bit to make me cry -- let alone break into hysterical sobbing that I can't stop. So, enough is enough. I can't help my son if I can't help myself. Before I spin even more out of control and can't drag myself out of the black hole, it's time to seek some help for myself so that I can do what my son needs me to do in order to help him. It's my job to take care of him and to advocate for him. I am his first line of defense and the person who is responsible for getting him what he needs. I can't do any of those things if I am so emotionally raw that I can't get through a phone conversation without becoming hysterical and hyperventilating. My son deserves better than a mother who has become a basket case. I haven't been to any kind of mental health professional in about 10 years. I don't even remember what it was like, so I don't know what to expect. I guess I ought to go armed with the mental health history in my family, which I found out over the weekend is more "interesting" than I had previously been told. The problems are far more extensive than I thought. I don't know. I just want someone to help me so that I can help my son. I want my son back and I want myself back. Right now, I feel like we're both lost. [/QUOTE]
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