i'm sitting here in tears and had to go somewhere with-it right now to release. it's been so hard these past two weeks, i know i love to complain yet it's been so so hard. difficult child had a meltdown last night over something and tried jumping out of my truck we were close to home on the block but still. we are averaging a meltdown a day now. she has had school refusal everday for hte past two weeks. i keep pushing she keeps rising. yet now its getting to be too much for her. she's got ela's this week, than a new sitter, me working. it's too much change too quick. i'm going as slow as i can but her therapist even went awol on us isnt' returning calls. so difficult child doesnt' have enough supports in place right now. she pushed me this morning trying to get past me to get her finger in pancake mix that i was making after i told her no. i just broke down i'm exhuasted and sick and i feel so bad that she's going thru this due to me. than two minutes later it was mommy i love you blah blah blah. so i think i need to go on my one appointment today than call the office and say sorry but im done for today. i have to take a mom to go get section 8 so her and child can continue having housing. than meet over her child. sorry i'm just tired and done today.