I have no clue why, but I woke up this morning in such a low mood I just question why I got out of bed at all today. I never feel this low, ever. I have major pain days, today isn't one of them. Bills are paid and Christmas looms but we have enough. This is rare so its a blessing. The kids are both doing fantastic. S/O is doing well in his course and is less than 2 weeks away from a nearly month long break which we'll spend having Christmas, baking, laughing, enjoying each other. Why do I feel this way? I just have to keep myself from bursting into tears. It's so bad S/O came home from class on a break to : give me a hug and kiss! Kid ya not, 45 minute trip each way. To try to make me feel better. How sweet and wonderful is that? Is he? Yet I'm weepy. I feel lost and sad. Feels like I lost someone or something awful. WtH?