I tried to get His Lordship up at 8.00am as arranged. No go! I stormed off, and said, it's easy to say 'sorry' but your attitude doesn't change. I took the german student to school and left cherub at home with daughter. she had a temperature and bad cough. He surfaced around 8.45am.... when he felt like it. We talked about how his attitude doesn't change, despite threats, punishments etc. and his apparently being sorry. He tried to excuse it by saying he was tired (poor thing!) Sorry, I'm still cranky, and very fed up with this. Anyway, I took him to his appointment with the job services Centre. He has to report fortnightly. On the way I talked about attitude. He says I'm controlling, I pointed out, he is the one controlling his destiny by his attitude. (That's a fair comment, isn't it?) We got there, and he expected me to announce his arrival. I refused. He said "F...K you" in front of everyone. I should have just made him walk from there! The appointment went well. She talked straight to him. Told him he has to pull his weight at home, he's got it too easy, blah blah! blah! He says ' yeah, yeah, yeah' In one ear and out the other I could tell. Talked to him about how he's got it good, paying so little in board, somewhere to live, someone to run him around... Talked to him about how drugs will affect his life badly and negate his medication etc. and alcohol... still just sat saying yeah yeah. So, we get home, he asks what can he do? I gave him some tasks, but my heart wasn't in it. I'm so emotionally wrung out. He worked precisely about 90 minutes and said he didn't want to do any more! He is tired, he doesn't want to work more than an hour or so for me. I had previously told him he can negotiate the time he starts doing some work for me, i.e. 8-3pm or 7-4pm that he would not have power for his dvds and playstation till 7pm each day (after the dinner time) nd he was expected to do his tasks cheerfullly and well. So, we're back to square one. Me fed up of arguing (so I won't) him not willing to concede. So, no dinner. And I had already said he wasn't to have power before 7pm each night till 10.00pm as I don't want him wasting his life on PS and DVDS. I want him in the real world. Also told him no more smoking on the property, he has to be outside the boundary. I am just so worn out with arguing with him, so I am refusing to. That's the best I can do. My energies are depleting fast. I even told someone I wanted to end it all tonight, though that is quite out of character from me. Maybe I'm more desperate than I think? I just can't think of one nnice thing to say about the day, or how I feel. Me, who usually has to buoy up others, I can't do it anymore. I don't even know how I'm going to handle tomorrow, every time I see him, I want to run in the opposite direction from possible confrontation.