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<blockquote data-quote="Star*" data-source="post: 556640" data-attributes="member: 4964"><p>RA = </p><p></p><p>I followed the advice of the "professionals" for years and was hard as a rock when it came to the holidays. I treated every holiday as if it were 'any other day'. Now what I have is an album and a child (left living) that is bitter, and resentful of HOlidays and gets moody, SAD and hates but secretly in his heart LOVES and misses the fact that due to his behavior he missed out on all the family holiday gatherings. Christmas, Thanksgiving, Birthdays,......I didn't do it to hurt him.......I did it in hopes that as he grew? He would recognize that these were special family days. It hurts me to even write about it now. </p><p>I LOVE FAMILY. I love traditions.......and yet most of my traditions ar memories. I have boxes and boxes and boxes of decorations......none of which have seen sunlight for years. Along with my eyes - on my kids for one reason or another.....behavior, death, warrants....jail. And after a period of time I think part of me TRYS to do the things that help others and then the other part of me is human and gets bitter and gets angry and gets jealous when I see "A FAMILY" having their fun time, craft time - CHristmasy time-----together time-----and it's just jealousy. Because I wish it could be MY family......my normal family. But its not meant to be for whatever reason. And it's just me, and the dogs ----once again. Watching tv........and hopefully getting cards in the mail.....no decorations, and maybe a hamburger. It's been that way for years. Helping others at a mission......or passing out blankets to homeless because - my son was once that way. I mean whatever it takes to get through it. </p><p></p><p>SO I would say to you.......DO what makes your heart GLAD. If you enjoy having her there? Set limits and time and take lots of pictures fo rmemories........and go for it. If it would make you more sad ? Grab the dog and go to Burger King - I know for a fact they are open......lol.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Star*, post: 556640, member: 4964"] RA = I followed the advice of the "professionals" for years and was hard as a rock when it came to the holidays. I treated every holiday as if it were 'any other day'. Now what I have is an album and a child (left living) that is bitter, and resentful of HOlidays and gets moody, SAD and hates but secretly in his heart LOVES and misses the fact that due to his behavior he missed out on all the family holiday gatherings. Christmas, Thanksgiving, Birthdays,......I didn't do it to hurt him.......I did it in hopes that as he grew? He would recognize that these were special family days. It hurts me to even write about it now. I LOVE FAMILY. I love traditions.......and yet most of my traditions ar memories. I have boxes and boxes and boxes of decorations......none of which have seen sunlight for years. Along with my eyes - on my kids for one reason or another.....behavior, death, warrants....jail. And after a period of time I think part of me TRYS to do the things that help others and then the other part of me is human and gets bitter and gets angry and gets jealous when I see "A FAMILY" having their fun time, craft time - CHristmasy time-----together time-----and it's just jealousy. Because I wish it could be MY family......my normal family. But its not meant to be for whatever reason. And it's just me, and the dogs ----once again. Watching tv........and hopefully getting cards in the mail.....no decorations, and maybe a hamburger. It's been that way for years. Helping others at a mission......or passing out blankets to homeless because - my son was once that way. I mean whatever it takes to get through it. SO I would say to you.......DO what makes your heart GLAD. If you enjoy having her there? Set limits and time and take lots of pictures fo rmemories........and go for it. If it would make you more sad ? Grab the dog and go to Burger King - I know for a fact they are open......lol. [/QUOTE]
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