My it sounds like home here. Not that I'm not sorry for us all, but it would be nice not to feel alone...
My 18 year old son is sweet, funny, completely unmotivated and lies to a terrifying degree. He is loving and helps around the house, but he has no consciencous and no fear of or problem with punishment. His father is not in the picture...in fact, they haven't spoken in 2 years. He was domineering and violent...I thought I would try a different route with my son, and my son loves me (whatever that means to a teen) for it, but it's killing me. I have worked hard my whole life and am now on my second heart attack.
His grades were honor role until his junior year...for two years now I've put him off at the front door and he takes off out the back. After my second coronary, in February, I finally allowed him to quit school and take his final three classes on line, which I monitor constantly to make sure he does. He has no concept of money...once he was given a present of $500. I put it in the bank for him and he went into overdraft within 2 days...he bought a watch and an amazing amount of fast food. He refuses to get a job...well, he doesn't REFUSE but he doesn't get one. He tells me each week how many applications he turned in...ha ha ha. I've had three instances within a year of jewelry missing...family herlooms the last two times. I cannot carry cash into the house. There doesn't seem to be a lock he can't will open. Every nice present I've ever given him...Ipods, game systems, etc... end up "getting stolen from his truck". Last week I found the THIRD speeding ticket that he has hidden and forgotten about...another failure to appear.
He admits he smokes pot occasionally, but I have found no evidence of other drugs...and I prowl whenever I can work up the courage. He passes the drug tests I give him, but has winked about how easy they are to pass.
And he absolutely REFUSES to admit any of it. I've even called the police when the jewerly turns up missing...they can't do anything. I could accuse him, but I can't prove it.
I flinch when the phone rings. I'm afraid to check my email. I hide in my house...or maybe I'm just trying to defend it. I'm becoming more and more paranoid and last weekend I blew through a stop sign that I've stopped at a thousand times before, I was so preoccupied. I know all of you know how it feels to walk into work or go out with friends who seem to have "good" children. I'm always trying to figure out what to do (we've tried FOUR therapists) and the stress is horrible.
I have now given him two months to finish his diploma and move out of the house. He has a trust fund which I guess I cannot stop him from taking, as I had nothing to do with it and he is 18, but I fully expect him to blow through it in a few weeks. He's very excited about being on his own...this the child who cannot follow a mapquest to his doctor's appointments.
He's my only child. All my family lives in another state. And I feel like the most pathetic loser on the planet. I'll be more miserable when he goes, worrying.
A little support would be greatly appreciated...
My 18 year old son is sweet, funny, completely unmotivated and lies to a terrifying degree. He is loving and helps around the house, but he has no consciencous and no fear of or problem with punishment. His father is not in the picture...in fact, they haven't spoken in 2 years. He was domineering and violent...I thought I would try a different route with my son, and my son loves me (whatever that means to a teen) for it, but it's killing me. I have worked hard my whole life and am now on my second heart attack.
His grades were honor role until his junior year...for two years now I've put him off at the front door and he takes off out the back. After my second coronary, in February, I finally allowed him to quit school and take his final three classes on line, which I monitor constantly to make sure he does. He has no concept of money...once he was given a present of $500. I put it in the bank for him and he went into overdraft within 2 days...he bought a watch and an amazing amount of fast food. He refuses to get a job...well, he doesn't REFUSE but he doesn't get one. He tells me each week how many applications he turned in...ha ha ha. I've had three instances within a year of jewelry missing...family herlooms the last two times. I cannot carry cash into the house. There doesn't seem to be a lock he can't will open. Every nice present I've ever given him...Ipods, game systems, etc... end up "getting stolen from his truck". Last week I found the THIRD speeding ticket that he has hidden and forgotten about...another failure to appear.
He admits he smokes pot occasionally, but I have found no evidence of other drugs...and I prowl whenever I can work up the courage. He passes the drug tests I give him, but has winked about how easy they are to pass.
And he absolutely REFUSES to admit any of it. I've even called the police when the jewerly turns up missing...they can't do anything. I could accuse him, but I can't prove it.
I flinch when the phone rings. I'm afraid to check my email. I hide in my house...or maybe I'm just trying to defend it. I'm becoming more and more paranoid and last weekend I blew through a stop sign that I've stopped at a thousand times before, I was so preoccupied. I know all of you know how it feels to walk into work or go out with friends who seem to have "good" children. I'm always trying to figure out what to do (we've tried FOUR therapists) and the stress is horrible.
I have now given him two months to finish his diploma and move out of the house. He has a trust fund which I guess I cannot stop him from taking, as I had nothing to do with it and he is 18, but I fully expect him to blow through it in a few weeks. He's very excited about being on his own...this the child who cannot follow a mapquest to his doctor's appointments.
He's my only child. All my family lives in another state. And I feel like the most pathetic loser on the planet. I'll be more miserable when he goes, worrying.
A little support would be greatly appreciated...