Let me reintroduce myself. Way back in 1999, or 2000 I was lucky enough to find this fledgling website and a whole bunch of fabulous (exhausted) moms who helped me through a lot. I was about 24 at the time and trying to keep my head above water. I had a daughter with an array of things going on that would all be labeled mild (but in tandem and on a daily basis it sure didn't feel so "mild"!)...and a daughter two years younger. I think my firstborn was about 3 when I first found Conduct Disorders. She is now 13 and actually a great kid. (Remnants of the same behaviors sometimes remind me of how bad it used to be...but it's great overall.) So you're wondering why I'm back aren't ya? Well, she has a sister who is two years younger and I guess just didn't want to let her sister be the only one to charter this particular ship. Why, oh why, am I again the unwilling captain? Well, I've been in denial for 6 years. My child has ODD and it's wearing me out. I want to believe it will all work out okay....but she is now 11 and while also a wonderful person, this condition is just devastating and sometimes I feel like I'm lucky it hasn't ripped our family apart. I do fear it will be a more intense struggle in the years to come and so I am back for support and guidance down this well worn path. Well, I have to say I actually got giddy when I found you guys. You all know what I mean. You felt the same way when you found a place full of people that could relate and might have answers. I got disconnected from the group because of a lot of things. Moves, life changes, husbands deployments, and ultimately things (eventually) working out pretty positively with my child that initially brought me here! But ... for the last 3 years I've been trying to find my way back. I could NOT for the life of me remember the name of this website, and at different times through the years I tried to google some catch phrases to try to find it again and today I FOUND the right words. Maybe it took finally admitting the problem and not being in denial- which just happened this week. So here I am. Formerly I was "giella007". I went back through the archives to see if there was anything I recognized. Lo and behold there was one about "mourning the loss of a dream" which had stuck with me ALL these years and had helped me to have a fairly cathartic transition in my parenting/emotions/etc. Very helpful then, and equally so now. Where is Fran, by the way? I don't see her name as a moderator anywhere. Has she passed the baton? See you around.