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<blockquote data-quote="trinityroyal" data-source="post: 143446" data-attributes="member: 3907"><p>Hello everyone,</p><p></p><p>I'm glad to see that we're all hanging in there, celebrating victories and dealing with the challenges that have come our way. You're all making tremendous progress and I'm proud of all of you.</p><p></p><p>I am still struggling with emotions and spirit. While husband was away visiting difficult child and Little easy child was staying with relatives, I started to work on the emotional exercises that my therapist gave me. I gave it a go, but when I started to feel the overwhelming rush of emotions I had to step back from it. It feels like walking to a cliff edge, and I get vertigo.</p><p></p><p>I'm terrified of letting myself go, that if I let it all loose, my mind will just break into tiny pieces and I'll never be able to find them all or put them back together. I know that if I want to stop carrying around this baggage for the rest of my life, I need to put the bags down, open them up and look inside them...but I'm scared.</p><p></p><p>I tell myself that the time I'm taking to sort out my head is time that I can better spend working and putting food on the table. While husband is still out of work, I feel the need to rack up as many overtime hours as I can to make sure that our bills are covered. It's all excuses, though. If I can find the time to read a book or knit a sweater, I can certainly find the time to work on my emotional health. I guess what it boils down to is...I'm just scared.</p><p></p><p>As for dance class, I'm having such a good time.</p><p></p><p></p><p>My teacher arranged for the head instructor to evaluate me and decide whether I could be in the next Showcase. The HI doesn't think I'm quite ready yet, so he wants to wait until the next one in the summer. But...the HI has agreed to take over my classes, and start teaching me himself. The HI is the one who teaches the dance teachers at the studio, so I feel pretty darn good that he wants to work with me.</p><p></p><p>Frankly, I'm relieved about the show. I didn't feel that I was ready yet, and now I have the time to train and prepare properly. When the next Showcase comes up, I WILL have pictures, and I will make sure that they give me a dress with LOTS of spangles and sequins on it!</p><p></p><p>Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend.</p><p></p><p>Please send me strength while I keep unpacking my baggage. I've been keeping a lot of detritus in there that just needs to get cleared out.</p><p></p><p>Trinity</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="trinityroyal, post: 143446, member: 3907"] Hello everyone, I'm glad to see that we're all hanging in there, celebrating victories and dealing with the challenges that have come our way. You're all making tremendous progress and I'm proud of all of you. I am still struggling with emotions and spirit. While husband was away visiting difficult child and Little easy child was staying with relatives, I started to work on the emotional exercises that my therapist gave me. I gave it a go, but when I started to feel the overwhelming rush of emotions I had to step back from it. It feels like walking to a cliff edge, and I get vertigo. I'm terrified of letting myself go, that if I let it all loose, my mind will just break into tiny pieces and I'll never be able to find them all or put them back together. I know that if I want to stop carrying around this baggage for the rest of my life, I need to put the bags down, open them up and look inside them...but I'm scared. I tell myself that the time I'm taking to sort out my head is time that I can better spend working and putting food on the table. While husband is still out of work, I feel the need to rack up as many overtime hours as I can to make sure that our bills are covered. It's all excuses, though. If I can find the time to read a book or knit a sweater, I can certainly find the time to work on my emotional health. I guess what it boils down to is...I'm just scared. As for dance class, I'm having such a good time. My teacher arranged for the head instructor to evaluate me and decide whether I could be in the next Showcase. The HI doesn't think I'm quite ready yet, so he wants to wait until the next one in the summer. But...the HI has agreed to take over my classes, and start teaching me himself. The HI is the one who teaches the dance teachers at the studio, so I feel pretty darn good that he wants to work with me. Frankly, I'm relieved about the show. I didn't feel that I was ready yet, and now I have the time to train and prepare properly. When the next Showcase comes up, I WILL have pictures, and I will make sure that they give me a dress with LOTS of spangles and sequins on it! Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend. Please send me strength while I keep unpacking my baggage. I've been keeping a lot of detritus in there that just needs to get cleared out. Trinity [/QUOTE]
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