I don't know why, but I went from being here daily to nothing: fear, guilt, exhaustion, embarrassment .... I don't know. The kids have started back to school (a week ago) and things must be going pretty good. I received an email from difficult child's teacher saying he had a great first day, then Tuesday she responded to my email and said things were going well. I talked with- the bus driver this afternoon and she said she hasn't had any problems with difficult child at all. Great! I'm glad he's being good at school. Now let's work on the homework arguments that happen daily. Literally, it makes my head spin when he starts arguing over doing homework. While talking with- the bus driver today, she told me he came up and talked to her this morning and told her he was leaving on Friday. She told him good luck and hope he gets the help he needs and she'll see him next year. I'm here sitting on pins and needles waiting for the phone call from the facility with approved or disapproved status from the state. I've got his bunny, blanket, pillow and pillow case in the wash ready for packing with his clothes tonight (pending approval). The plan is to leave Friday after the other 2 kids leave for school. I have kinda backed out socially ~ talking only to those in immediate inner circle. Unsure of what to expect. Hoping I can stay strong enough to not break down before I leave the front doors of the facility.