Well I survived it again. My husband wasnt able to go in with me. They said only one person and the other person would have to make another appointment. So anyway - he was there to support me. My difficult child was ok - he wants me to bond him out before court so he can go to a rehab that this man said he could get him into. I dont know what to do about it right now because we dont have the money. I said to him and what if you "blow" the rehab - then what - he said he would be not in good shape! Anyway, I still cant believe him yet - trust is hard to earn back. He did smile a couple of times and said he had a room to himself right now! He said he was tired of sitting there and I reminded him of why he is there and why he is not home with us on Christmas inistead of me coming here! I still cant see the transformation yet! I am not waiting for perfect - because if will never be - but the humbleness I am not seeing yet. Who knows. I will go to church tonight and pray for direction. At least he is still alive - I told him that and he just looked at me and made a face like - yeah right Mom! Anyway, that is an update. Merry Christmas!