Sorry this is so long.
I'm so emotionally wrought that I literally starting crying when I saw that you cared enough to ask about my son and the rest of my family. Thank you so much for caring.
They've decided that Leo is a threat to himself and he's on a 72 hour hold. His doctor told me that he will probably be released after that into outpatient treatment, so that's good, I guess.
Leo's being...difficult. I think he's scared to death of the place and being 'locked up' like this, and he's also furious at me for taking him to the hospital, absolutely enraged that I "embarrassed" him like that.
I know he feels like I've betrayed him. He told me that he's never going to forgive me and, when I left to go home to the girls, that he hopes I don't come back. I'm trying not to let it get to me because (I hope) he doesn't mean it, but yeah. It's extremely hard.
He's acting out in the only way he can right now by refusing to eat. The doctor said that that's his way of keeping some semblance of control, but as he's malnourished, it's presenting a problem. If he doesn't eat by the end of the 72 hour period, he'll be kept longer and sedated and force fed. Not good.
He's in intensive therapy right now and I hope to god it helps him.
My daughters are doing better than expected. Nora, my ten-year-old, told me that she's happy that Leo's going somewhere that will help him. Sophie is fourteen and she's doing really well, being really understanding. I'm at home with them today and visiting him tonight.
Jack, my twelve-year-old son, has been on a school trip since Tuesday (I'm so glad that there's at least one member of my family that didn't witness yesterday's events) and is getting home tomorrow. I made the decision not to call him and tell him because I'm scared, actually, of his reaction. Leo's the popular, athletic, handsome and charming older brother that he idolizes, and I think that Jack is going to be very unnerved at having that image totally obliterated.
As for me, I'm pretty much an emotional mess right now, but I'm trying to be strong for the kids and Leo.
My biggest fear is that nothing will be the same again. Before Leo's friend's suicide, our lives were very, very normal and very, very good; the only big bad thing that had ever happened was my husband leaving when Nora was a baby. I want my life back.
I've been suggested family therapy for all five of us once Leo is more mentally stable, and I'm going to definitely try it. I think we all need it.
So there's the current state of events. Thank you all so much again. I really do think you saved my son's life with your help and advice, and it was just so amazing to have all of your support. You all are amazing women.