hi me again. i have zero supports in my life by the way lol which is why i'm here sooo much. dont' feel bad just stating facts. zero friends to talk to they live far away the 3 good friends i have, family zero support and you guys know husband works literally all the time. so i feel soo bad for difficult child past few days. she wants a friend so badly. she got to know what it was like in oregon to have one, and now she's back and wants one really badly. i text the two mom's of the kids she'd play with-sometimes in the past 5 years we've lived here. one has asperger's a real sweet girl, and the other is high anxiety. like kids do attract. parents are seemingly backing away from us more than the usual. i guess going across country was a huge thing for ppl to see so now difficult child has the tag of don't go near that kid on her forehead. i get the oh we're busy yet we'll talk, every excuse under the sun. these parents by the way were at my wedding i know them well, and their parents of kids with junk too. you would think more compassion would be present. so, here i sit wondering what the next move is for her. she left with her dad a big ago i have free till 6. i'm wasting it thinking about this. no wonder i can't sleep there is so much here to handle. this is just a tiny bit of it. i'm joining a gym next week, tried calling back this support group thing yet no one's called back again. trying to set me up so i can cope with-it all. the riding lessons and the singing lessons are great yet not team things whereas the opportunity to make a friend would prevail.i know in time it'll happen somehow and i'll figure it out. i just feel bad for her right now. that's all. only natural. as usual disappointed in this neighborhood also. which hasn't changed.