I just wanted to put this in thanking everyone that has sent a response to my first post. I have changed names and such to be safer. I am glad that I have found this site for my family. I may be completely wrong, but I felt as though a few of the responses that I did get from my very first post were almost talking to me like I should know how to handle every situation that we are going through, and that I was approaching things wrong. I just want to state that this is all a learning process for me, as well as for my family. I am taking every day as a new day and try to approach things in the best way that I know. I lost my mother to cancer 12 years ago, so I do not have anyone that I can turn to for support in my close circle, other than my wonderful husband. I suffered a ruptured brain aneurysm in August of 2010 and almost died several times, and I am so thankful to be alive and to be able to be a mother to my children. Things are hard for me to deal with also. I definitely have some issues with my memory now, and with my nerves. I have to take nerve pills on a daily basis to try to keep my own self sane. Even though I do not like the person that I am today, I know that it is not my fault and that all I can do is to keep a positive attitude. My family is the most important thing to me. I was only looking for support when I found this site. I know that some of the people on here have been dealing with their own situations for far longer than myself, and I will gladly accept any type of advice that I can get. I guess I was just looking for some softer support for the fact that I am new to the site, and that I am learning to deal with my difficult child everyday. I have never been around children with any type of disabilities, so I am very new learning how to cope and deal with the situations that come in my home. I may not ask things the right way, but I am learning what works and what does not. I am not perfect. I am struggling. I can admit that. But what parent does not struggle in the beginning of learning and accepting the fact that their child has problems? It is hard to accept as I am sure you are all aware of. I just felt the need to put this post out there instead of just leaving the site, because I know that I need all the friends and help that I can get. Thank you for taking the time to read my post.