JKF
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Today a letter came from difficult child. It was not addressed to me. It was addressed to his 11y/o brother. I obviously opened it because I had no idea what it might possibly say. I'm glad I did. There wasn't anything drastically horrible in there but difficult child did say that the reason he's in jail is bc he was in the group home and it was "NO FUN" so that's why he impulsively left with a girl and is now in jail. Uggggh really?? You're in jail because of the group home???? Not because you compulsively steal from everyone you meet?? It's enough to make me want to scream! He also said that he's forgiven his father and almost as an afterthought "I've even forgiven mom". Ok??!! I guess "mom" is the bad one in his eyes. I guess all of my suffering over his problems means nothing. I guess all of the hard work and heart and soul I've poured into trying to help him means nothing. His father is an abusive ahole who is in prison and he's forgiven! How nice! It's not really a surprise bc he's always blamed me for everything but to see it written was kind of a big huge slap in the face.
He also wrote that he'll be home for Christmas. Ummm - no - he won't. It breaks my heart but he can't come into this house. He's a thief, he has major unresolved anger towards me, and he's unstable. I can't take the chance.
I'm going to talk to my younger sons therapist before I give him the letter. I want to see what he thinks. Younger son is having some problems coping with certain things and I don't want to add any fuel to the fire.
I do have to say - seeing difficult child's handwriting and reading his thoughts (even though they are skewed) was heartbreaking. I wish I could wave a wand and make his world better but it's so (even more so now) obvious that it will never ever be that easy! *****sigh*****
He also wrote that he'll be home for Christmas. Ummm - no - he won't. It breaks my heart but he can't come into this house. He's a thief, he has major unresolved anger towards me, and he's unstable. I can't take the chance.
I'm going to talk to my younger sons therapist before I give him the letter. I want to see what he thinks. Younger son is having some problems coping with certain things and I don't want to add any fuel to the fire.
I do have to say - seeing difficult child's handwriting and reading his thoughts (even though they are skewed) was heartbreaking. I wish I could wave a wand and make his world better but it's so (even more so now) obvious that it will never ever be that easy! *****sigh*****