I am sorry if I havent been responding to as many posts as usual but its hard to be up right now. I think my mental health is just shot right now. Im having outbursts like I havent had in years. In the last week alone I have taken a metal rod to a wall, started throwing everything I could get my hands on all over the room until difficult child and husband managed to pin me to the ground. Last night I got so ticked off at husband because he mouthed off at me and made a smart - donkey remark to me about the can opener. I finally got tired of listening to him complain about everything in his world, how he does everything and is so put upon that I threw the container of laundry detergent across the room which took everything on my island in the kitchen to the floor. I simply cannot contain my need to do something physical when I get angry. I know some of this is all the stress due to Buck and the stress of having difficult child back home. We almost always have the baby now that he is here and Im not that into toddlers. She is also a major difficult child for a 2 year old. She doesnt sit still ever, she gets into everything and if you try to take something away from her she will either bite or scratch you...all the while screaming at the top of her lungs! For some reason husband is in the worst mood himself and we are at each other constantly. He calls Buck on the phone and is all nicey nice but talking to me he is all snarky. I dont do well with that. I keep threatening to burn down the house but since that is illegal I guess Im trying to dismantle it one piece of sheetrock at a time...sigh. I dont like feeling this way. I just want to be peaceful. Then on top of all this, difficult child has been trying to sell his car on craigslist and everyone who has replied has been a scammer. Im glad I am screening those responses because he would probably fall for it. I did just get a call from a guy whose wife is a MP in the Marines and he wants to come see it. Actually coming to see it is a good thing. The scammers all want to send you a certified check or money order and then have you pay to have it shipped. Idiots.