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<blockquote data-quote="Steely" data-source="post: 123516" data-attributes="member: 3301"><p>Janet, I have frequent thoughts of suicide........and I have since I was 13. I now know, that it is my mental wiring, and part of a funky coping mechanism that causes these thoughts - I have gotten therapy, and medications for it - but sometimes it still blindsides me. Especially when I am really, really stressed out. In fact I just talked to my therapist about this, because the thoughts had gotten really bad again.</p><p></p><p>I find this a very painful affliction. It is like my coping mechanisms completely shut down, and the only thing my mind can think of to do is entertain leaving the world. It is really frustrating, and something I rarely tell anyone about, unless I want them to admit me somewhere. Sometimes I think it is the secrecy of having such compulsive dark thoughts, that makes them worse. I mean, who do you tell that kinda thing to? </p><p></p><p>Anyway, I just want to reach out and tell you I <strong>totally</strong> understand. In every way shape and form..........and truthfully, I wish I could talk about this with people more......without them freaking out, and thinking they need to call a suicide hotline. I mean, I am 40 - and I have had these dark thoughts for 27 years........I don't think I am going to act on it.......it is just nice to sometimes be able to talk about this when you are in such a crummy place.</p><p></p><p>Big hugs.<img src="/community/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/felttip/furry.png" class="smilie" loading="lazy" alt=":furry:" title="furry :furry:" data-shortname=":furry:" /></p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Steely, post: 123516, member: 3301"] Janet, I have frequent thoughts of suicide........and I have since I was 13. I now know, that it is my mental wiring, and part of a funky coping mechanism that causes these thoughts - I have gotten therapy, and medications for it - but sometimes it still blindsides me. Especially when I am really, really stressed out. In fact I just talked to my therapist about this, because the thoughts had gotten really bad again. I find this a very painful affliction. It is like my coping mechanisms completely shut down, and the only thing my mind can think of to do is entertain leaving the world. It is really frustrating, and something I rarely tell anyone about, unless I want them to admit me somewhere. Sometimes I think it is the secrecy of having such compulsive dark thoughts, that makes them worse. I mean, who do you tell that kinda thing to? Anyway, I just want to reach out and tell you I [B]totally[/B] understand. In every way shape and form..........and truthfully, I wish I could talk about this with people more......without them freaking out, and thinking they need to call a suicide hotline. I mean, I am 40 - and I have had these dark thoughts for 27 years........I don't think I am going to act on it.......it is just nice to sometimes be able to talk about this when you are in such a crummy place. Big hugs.:furry: [/QUOTE]
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