I haven't even had time to get myself together yet and now this. Had my annual Mammogram last week. They said they would call if it was abnormal, otherwise I would get a letter. Saw a letter from the clinic on Tuesday, but thought it was a bill and ignored it until yesterday. Opened it and says they found a large dense mass. I called and she said they want me to come in for further testing ASAP. Friday(tomorrow). Said that I will meet with the doctor after each test. The result of each test will determine if there will be the next test. But I will meet with the doctor after each test so when I leave, I will have the results. I am normally not scheduled to work Wednesday night until the next Sunday night. However, THIS week is our disaster recovery testing and I am scheduled from 9 - 3 on Friday. This is part of my goals, and our merrit increases are based on our goals. I originally told the lady I cannot make it Friday. Scheduled for Monday. I thought what will a few days harm. Then I was told by someone that Breast Cancer is very aggressive. So, I called her back this morning and decided I will just be late for my work. She said she was glad I called back it is very important to get this done as soon as possible. She did say that the doctor working tomorrow usually always will request the second test so not to be alarmed if he does. She said after the first test the doctor will then speak to me and my husband. After the second test another meeting. I will not leave with any questions. Then I cried. My husband won't go. He won't miss work for me. If it was difficult child he would, but me....he won't. I'll tell him what she said, see if he shows up. I highly doubt it. Then I find out they DID call and leave a message with no response. Asked my kids if they erased it. Nope. Then husband says he did. ????? difficult child had a friend (same age) whose mother died last fall from breast cancer. I was so upset yesterday after reading that letter I left it on the table, and both boys read it. Now to mention the fight I got into last week with difficult child when I actually said, "how would you like to be like your friend with NO mother". I am really, really, really scared. difficult child needs me. I am so scared, and so alone. And sick. The letter said left breast. That is the one that hurt when they squished it in the little vice thingy. I just thought the other side didn't hurt as much because they must not have squished it as much. Came home Tuesday night from work sick. Sick since Monday. Just very sick and couldn't finish my shift. That was before I even knew this. What are your experiences with mammograms?? I am thinking since they want me to meet with the doctor and since they said ASAP they must of seen something bad. I am worried.