We always have that gut thing going on when your insides scream "This is NOT right". I have been having more and more of them. Since Eric started on the risperdal, its been like night and day, he is doing so much better, but Danae is picking up where he left off, and she is worrying me. I can't get past it. Let's start with yes she has been diagnosed as ADHD, but we know its usually never just ADHD, it has it's companions. She is currently taking Vyvanse 50. Things that were masked by the ADHD symptoms are becoming more prevalent and "concentrated" as it were. Just this week alone, we have had drama every single day. Monday she had a tantrum because she didnt like chicken.. that her favorite dinner. Tuesday she had a tantrum that seemed to last forever because she said she wanted to glue this paper she had made into a triangle. Wednesday she woke up at 4am, no lie, 4 am woke up the entire house because she was scared of Linda's "creepy" porcelain doll. Thursday she had yet another breakdown, firstly at the daycare where she punched a litte boy in the eye, because he did a flip and accidently hit her forehead. While the behavior therapist was here, she's seen them alot, this tantrum because she had to share the markers. Today, today I got a call from her teacher concerned because Danae had not turned in her homework in three weeks. She was also concerned because in her words Danae, doesnt smile alot. Which is odd because we take an hour everyday for homework only. My little girl is not a happy one, she is constantly anxious and nervous, she is scared and seems to be in a never-ending tantrum. She is excited and talking excessantly and doesnt stop moving or fidgeting, having mania and then the depression. Our behavior specialist, Ms. Dawn says we are going to be working on self esteem with Danae for a long time, like the forseeable future. She has yet to hear Danae make a single positive statement about herself. I have this feeling in my gut that if I dont get more "intense" or better medication management she is not going to let herself have the chance to survive these challenges. I see her being promiscuous, because girls who have low self esteem, look to validate themselves through sex, and only validate the negative when the boy doesnt return the feelings. Or worse not making it to that point at all ever. I would like to have opinions, nothing concrete, but I do have ideas like bi-polar vs. Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) vs. ODD. Danae is a lying to my face, even she has been caught in the act, she is having constant break downs, extreme hyperness, she is a perfectionist and picks at her skin, she gave her a bald spot on her head from the picking, I am just looking for opinions. Any input is appreciated.