I'm also sorry Janet! My dad just went through the exact same thing. His best friend's wife in Fla. called to tell him that he was sick with throat cancer. He was getting his plane tickets set up when she called the next day to tell him he had died.
He was heartbroken.
Some people don't want a lot of fuss made due to their illness. They want people to remember them as they were rather than identify them by their illness.
I still don't go up to "the box" at funerals if I can avoid it. When my Mom passed, I couldn't picture her alive and healthy for years. I just remembered her in the box.
I hope you feel better soon. She's moved on to where there is no more pain.
Beth