Amazing but really sad.
I am down tonight. Not sure why tonight. Recently, I've been so awestruck by the parallels I see between my difficult child and his "cd cousins" on this board. Though none of us have meet in real life and I am sure our kids don't know each other - it's like they are all operating from the same owner's manual. I see the kids who are ahead of mine in the journey...PG's, Nancy's, Kathy's and TLs for instance - and I know we have some rougher days ahead. I see the kids who are walking near my own difficult child - AGs, Elsie's, PVs for example and I think - "OMG how can these kids be operating in sync? They don't even know each other!" And I see the newer difficult children and I want to cry out to their moms: "WARNING WARNING WARNING" been there done that, watch out for what's ahead..."
I think of my own first days on this board when I desperately needed your advice & your support yet a part of me thought "my boy will never be as as far removed as these other kids...he's going to return home, return to his senses and everything will be OK, we have such a bond..." HA
And I remember pouring out my soul and my confusion around the holidays and everyone pointing out in their replies that it was nearly certain that my son had failed out of school...aha - right on the money...how could I have been so naive?
and then the realization hit that my kid IS that manipulative, IS truly that far gone...and then like many of his "cd cousins" before him, his pleasant demeanor became menacing, and he dropped the "good son" facade...
and while everyone here dreads the phonecalls ... I never ever even get a call...or a text...or an email
so amazing that we feel the same way - yet amazingly sad
My son thinks he is striking out to be HIMSELF - lead his own original life, away from us - yet it is so clear he is EXACTLY like so many other difficult children - on the same exact path and with the same long rode ahead. Nothing original there.
