is a witch! hi yup me again, sorry but i gotta go somewhere with all this ugliness lately. i'll send all of you a check you can split! ha ha So, i call my mom to give my every two day update on difficult child. It starts off ok, i say well difficult child is shutting down again, no shakes today and only hot chocolate. gotta head to hospital tmrw. than my stepfather gives me a speech about how somethiing might be lodged in her throat etc. and to get the barium swallowing test done. ok i say i already ordered it just to be on safe side. hospital was making me wait yet i requested it. than on comes mom. A little bit about mom. Mom cleans alllllllllllllllllllll day long. she sprays door knobs with lysol, questions god, life, everything under the sun, drinks wine nightly, smokes her brains out and has emphysema, and basically is a good person with-alot of guilt over stuff she need not. she begins, this is tearing me apart, i'm number 2 in this! what??!!! what does that even mean mom? Well it's difficult child, you and than me. uh no it's difficult child, me, my husband, our family, easy child rest of kids. Your the grandma, you matter alot yet you gotta calm down this is a bump in the road, recovery is always a slippery slope. You should put her in the hospital, you aren't a dr. you talk like you are but you arent', you talk about medications, use words like prn, like you know what your doing. that's why i'm working with-team of doctors mom. Well, this is ripping me apart, now she has another diagnosis of sensory issues? wtf how do you know this is what she has? another diagnosis now to add to the list i can't take it anymore. how do you know any of this is what she has Jen? you give labels to everything, g.a.d. o.c.d. and now you say your also Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)?! i never saw that when you were growing up. on and on she went. than questioned the diagnosis of eating disorder, if only i could get into her mind than i'd be able to figure it out. ok mom. why she's doing this. why she's doing this to herself there has to be another reason. so i said calmly to her i do my best to answer all your questions yet their alot and your great on internet so go look it up if you want to. you spend too much time researching things creating diagnosis's that aren't there labeling her. so i said i gotta go i'm getting upset now and i gotta go get difficult child to eat some soup, she pushes on. i repeat same again she pushes on getting loud with-me now and insulting me. So, i said it. "why can't you just be a supportive parent, be uplifting tell me don't worry Jen it'll be ok everything just takes time". wait why not say jen your doing a great job you'll get there. instead of well you aren't a dr. and obviously somethiing's going wrong there that this kid is passing out in the house. so, i hung up. than my brother is texting me about how he walked in from school (he's in college) and mom's cursing throwing phones, attacking him. yea ok there's no mental illness in our family........ ha!!!!