He knows I know. He is avoiding me in shame. husband does not know and I won't share with him as he, too, has serious health problems. I'm having such a hard time accepting this new backslide. There is no doubt that he loves me. Once again, however, he has proven that he loves himself far more. I feel blindsided and am doing my best not to stress out as the MD's say stress likely caused the cancer and can surely shorten my life. I am sad. DDD PS: I feel compelled to encourage Timer Lady to abandon ship before she, too, is terminal. Whine!