it's been one month since I last spoke/emailed/msn'ed with difficult child Jess....and for some reason today is the day I choose to find difficult to get through. I have been keeping myself busy, so busy in fact that I am physically worn out but my mind won't stop.."pick up the phone and call, log into msn and send a mssge"....argh I am driving myself crazy here. Part of it is that easy child#1 was caught on msn last night talking to her....I had gone to bed early with a nasty chest cough and husband checked on the kids and found her typing like a fiend...she closed down the conversation right quick but he saw who it was on the other end. easy child now has no computer for a week but who's to say that she isn't talking to her through texting or at school. And I did hear through the grapevine that she is very sick with the pregnancy...thus my urge to call/write/vist......someone nail my feet to the floor and my hands to the ironing board!!!!