Tomorrow is difficult child's 1st day of 6th grade. We visited with his teacher on Friday and I stated that I hope the kids will give difficult child another chance, that he is healthier now than he was last Spring. This morning he called and told me he didn't feel well. Our house is empty of food (haven't been home for much of the last two weeks and I cleaned out the fridge last night. I told him to drink his gaterade, take a spoonful of peanut butter (protien), use the stress eraser, and call me later. He did call back about 1/2 hr later - "Hello, this is me, difficult child. Sorry I didn't call earlier. I feel much better." "did you have peanut butter?" "No, I want to clean out the game room". So, I don't know if he did ever have the protein or not but he felt better. Tonight, we went grocery shopping. On the way there, difficult child said he was sad because he is not ready for school. I sent him to get whatever he wanted for lunches this week and snacks (fruit). In the meantime, I ran into a friend and we were talking as difficult child did the shopping. After awhile he said he felt weird. I told him to slow down and do his breathing. I finished visiting my friend and difficult child decided he felt too weird to continue going off on his own for items. I headed to the restroom and he said that we needed to go as soon as I came out. Dejavu big time from last year! My heart dropped a little but I stayed strong and didn't let on my fears. We did get a few more things and headed to the checkout. difficult child was very involved in how to put items in the bags. He would do the auto check out based on what needed to go in the bag we were working on (Abbey would be so proud!). On the way home, I told him that he needs to start on trying to be asleep by 8:00. He was going to set up some more items in the game room (he and the babysitter cleaned out the room and set it up for a Wii room so I bought a t.v. this afternoon and difficult child is still setting up the room.), let the puppy out, eat, take a shower, and do the stress eraser. There was a message on the phone that the neighbor boy wanted to play (we weren't home this weekend). difficult child wanted to show him the game room so I told the mom that difficult child had about 20 minutes so the boy came over while I made supper. difficult child then put puppy downstairs and took a shower. He is working on his stress eraser and probably will be asleep by 8:30. (I can hope can't I?) difficult child is very anxious about tomorrow. He showed me a bruise on his side - we don't know what happened - I will look closer tomorrow. He just came out and said he is afraid he came down with some disease from the puppy. I told him he is just nervous about tomorrow and to go throw those feelings away. I am trying really hard not to show my uncertainty and fears of his school behavior. He has come so far this summer outside the structure and social needs of school. I need to keep postitive and upbeat. He can do this - yes, he can! Please send positive vibes as difficult child faces another major step tomorrow. I know many of you are going through the same thing. I send strength to you and your difficult children also.