My son has had health problems since 13 months. He had his first seizure then. He also has asthma, allergies (gets 2 shots once a week), was recently diagnosed with Aspergers and ODD. I've known for years that there was something "different" about my son. He is 11. The fits started at about age 8. It was horrifying and psychotic. The fits would last for 45 mins at a time and would just go on and on, fit after fit. Evenings were awful. We videotaped them but nobody wanted to see them. We had a neuropsychologist test done and that dr told me, "There is no miracle drug for your child." With that test done, they found NOTHING. I used to go to bed at night and would ask my husband (who is his stepdad) if I should drown myself or slit my wrists..... In April of this year, I think I met an angel. She specializes in behavioral issues. Within 10 minutes of sitting with us, she diagnosed him as Aspergers and ODD. I was in tears....not that that was anything new......I was AMAZED. Everything she said was DEAD on. I got the words I'd been searching for for YEARS!!! Although it doesn't make things any better. His dad (we are divorced, divorced when he was 5) blames me for everything. Says he doesn't act that way for him, that it's all me. The school doesn't see it and tells me that just because he is diagnosed in a clinical setting, doesn't mean he will be in a school setting.....they won't reevaluate him and say he is "too high functioning" and that he wouldn't qualify for anything more..... He saw the new psychiatrist 2 days ago and they added Tramazol (not sure if that's the correct name or not) to help him sleep and for anxiety and depression, to the other drugs (Abilify 5 mg/day and Vyvanse 50 mg/day) and also increased the Abilify to 10 mg and Vyvanse to 60 mg. I am hoping and praying that something helps. Something has got to give. I do not know what to do anymore. Mornings usually start with yelling and screaming (psychotically) and crying because he doesn't want to get out of bed. I am so grateful that it is summer and I don't HAVE to deal with it at the moment!!! Seems as though over the last few months, he has gotten worse. I've seen him start to argue with his dad at my older son's baseball games some and just the other day with my sister. He is also starting to now argue with me publically. I just told my husband last week that I hate him.....gosh it's awful. Can't believe I told him that and that I'm now typing it. I told my therapist yesterday (I just recently started to go) that also. She said I'm not the first and certainly not the last to feel that way/say that. It's the first time I've ever said it out loud but not the first time I've felt it. It's not him I hate, it's the behavior. My therapist asked me if I'm on any medications, I told her Zoloft but that doesn't seem to do anything. She suggested Lexapro. Do any of you take medications? I go to the psychiatrist on 7/15 so we'll see what he says. Do you all experience this? Sorry I just typed and typed.......just typed what came to mind. Thanks!