I saw her last week and she looked like koi again. All denials of course. Though, I know for a fact she has relapsed again through a friend of hers that I promised I wouldn't divulge to difficult child. Her friend said that he knows she is feeling very embarassed and guilty about it. So sad. I don't think she is happy one bit. I do think she really is completely miserable. She didn't want me to go but I just couldn't sit there and look at her. She looked so healthy in rehab, to see her looking the way she did before rehab was just too heartbreaking. Back to living the way she was. I told her one day she would get really sick of it and she looked at me and told me she has been sick of it for a while now. She claims the bad people have put her to work to earn the money they lost meaning she is back to selling. She thinks in a month she will be straight with them and they will let her go. She claims then she will get back in a program. So my boundaries are back up. I told her not to come to the house. I will not give her money, gift cards, etc. I am continuing to pay the phone bill for me, not her. I need to know she is alive. Why can't we have one good holiday season???