ok i think i'm ready to medicate me now. Why am I making things harder by not taking something to help the anxiety i'm feeling? why? I ask myself everyday why I feel the need to torture myself, I'm into the old school lift up your chin and move forward, get a grip my mother drilled that into me. Yet i think its time. I have xanax from last year i had taken a few of those yet i'm afraid to pop those although they did the trick so so well i loved them their addictive and i'm afraid to create a new problem. So, anyone out there have any good ideas? just to lower me down a bit to a somewhat more managable level? I'm not depressed, I'm ****** that things keep getting harder it seems and i'm always anxious i'm like difficult child now. I wasn't like this before. Is this what happens to us from handling so much? So, problem is i have no insurance right now. So i'm going to have to figure out how to get them. boyfriend's sister is a dr yet that's not a safe way to handle things for myself. any thoughts??? by the way I did ask my boyfriend if he found me to be all over the place like you guys do on ocassion he said yes very much so. He said your doinga great job handling without medications, but if it can make it easier for you than why not??